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Better by Sixty than Fifty :)
« on: August 03, 2011, 09:17:36 AM »
Female, 57, 5' 7" 213 lbs.

BP: 134/71

Pulse: 75

Osteoarthritis (hands and knees), seasonal depression (Jan - July).

Starting Paleo eating today (going cold turkey).

Regular exercise (when not housebound with depression): cycling, walking, rock scrambling and free weights at home. Intend to continue these, just increasing the frequency and duration as I become increasingly fit.

Not at all ready to give up and sit by my fireside :)

Current status: Last bout of depression was particularly bad due to a reduction in meds. Next year should be better, but almost complete inactivity for six months made my muscles very weak, so over the last month I've been working hard to get fit again

Goals: To lose weight and get as fit as I can at this age, and to work out a way to maintain fitness levels during periods of depression.

Journal entry for today:

Feeling very weak today. Not from starting the diet, but because I spent the last two days passing a kidney stone at home. The morphine I was given didn't help. Anyone who's passed a stone will understand just how agonising that is ;)

This was my second stone and came seven months after the first. I'm hoping that changing my diet will prevent more. Sadly I've been told to give up eating nuts, seeds and some berries on account of the oxalate content, but I can get by without them. Most of the tastiest Paleo foods are very low in oxalates :)

As I'm going cold turkey I'm not expecting to feel at my best for the next two weeks, and will go through my caffeine withdrawal headache within 24 hours.

So. I'm starting off suffering from indigestion and other digestive problems. I know these will soon disappear once I'm off gluten. Apart from that, my health is good. I've started to rebuild muscles in my legs through regular walking and cycling, but my upper body is still weak as I'm not really that keen on indoor exercises and have neglected the free weights for a while. I might try exercising out on the rocks instead. I used to climb a bit (without ropes) but the weight I'm now carrying makes that impossible.

I'll report back in exactly one week's time and weekly thereafter. It will take a long time to lose the weight and only after that will I know just how fit I can become. At the moment my motivation levels are constant and high. At my age this is no longer a matter of wanting to look good, but of saving my life. I know the risks of carrying this much weight for so long, and I'm incredibly lucky to be so healthy. But it can't last forever. My blood pressure can't afford to rise any higher, for one.

Looking forward to reading other members' journals :)

CF

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Re: Better by Sixty than Fifty :)
« Reply #1 on: August 04, 2011, 01:46:39 AM »
OK. Just to add to the above post. I'll be recording resting blood pressure and pulse rates weekly.

Starting at 123/70 and pulse rate of 67

I'll be sending in relevant blood test results every three months or so. I'll be concentrating on normalising my cholesterol and LDL levels over the coming months.

Previous diet has been as bad as it's possible to be with very high refined carbs and processed foods, so I must thank excellent genes for keeping me out of the danger zones so far. Can't rely on that forever though.

Here's my starting results:

Your Total Cholesterol of 210 is BORDERLINE

Your LDL of 138 is BORDERLINE

Your HDL of 57 is NORMAL

Your Triglyceride level of 75 is NORMAL

RATIOS:

Your Total Cholesterol/HDL ratio is: 3.68 - (preferably under 5.0, ideally under 3.5) GOOD

Your HDL/LDL ratio is: 0.413 - (preferably over 0.3, ideally over 0.4) IDEAL

Your triglycerides/HDL ratio is: 1.316 - (preferably under 4, ideally under 2) IDEAL


With thanks to Hugh for basic analysis :)

http://www.hughchou.org/calc/chol.php


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Re: Better by Sixty than Fifty :)
« Reply #2 on: August 04, 2011, 06:05:04 AM »
The paleo diet will help with the depression, especially if you read up on the effects of a ketogenic diet on emotional balance and mood.

Stock up on your healthy fats and meats, this way you only have healthy options in your fridge when hunger strikes. I found that double doing on fish oil pills of liquid for the first month really helped get the weight loss going good. after a week or so of feeling good, you will go through a transition to burning fat as a fuel and you will get the keto flu for a week as you adjust, after that your energy will balance and you'll be clearer minded and your mood stabilized. I really recommend you go for the full ketogenic state as soon as you can ,this will get your body burning fat right way, and make losing the weight much easier. Also ,a little bit of exercise goes a long way, don't listen to the hardcore folks, if your out of shape go slow, you will get fitter and stronger naturally, we are all not meant to be at our peak athletic strength.
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Re: Better by Sixty than Fifty :)
« Reply #3 on: August 05, 2011, 04:33:29 AM »
The paleo diet will help with the depression, especially if you read up on the effects of a ketogenic diet on emotional balance and mood.

This.


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I found that double doing on fish oil pills of liquid for the first month really helped get the weight loss going good.

And this can also help a lot with the mood.  It's difficult to overdose on fish oil; I've seen recommendations as high as 1 gram combined DHA/EPA per pound of body weight. 

For seasonal depression, also look into light therapy:
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/light-therapy/MY00195

If it's late summer where you are, this is a good time to get the jump on the seasonal affective disorder. Starting light therapy before the days get too short helps me avoid the energy slump during the fall and winter.

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Re: Better by Sixty than Fifty :)
« Reply #4 on: August 07, 2011, 11:56:33 PM »
The paleo diet will help with the depression, especially if you read up on the effects of a ketogenic diet on emotional balance and mood.

Hi Jim,

This week's been a bit chaotic what with the kidney stones thing and visits to docs and A&E so I haven't had the chance to read up on ketogenic diets and mood. I read a lot about it several years ago, but will check out the latest findings soon.

Once upon a time I was doing post-grad work in Nutritional Medicine with the intention of getting a PhD, and specialising in research into nutritional approaches to mental health problems. Not necessarily as a substitute for medication, but as an adjunct, in the hope of allowing for lower doses of drugs and fewer side effects.

However, ironically, it was my own depression that prevented me from continuing along that road. It was a fascinating topic, and much more work should be done on it. Sadly, most research is done on the far more profitable medication approach. I'm not anti-meds; far from it. They saved my life. But I just think that more should be done on the effects of nutrition on the mind, as medication side effects can be devastating, and especially the weight gain problem.

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Stock up on your healthy fats and meats, this way you only have healthy options in your fridge when hunger strikes.

Good advice. Not having something healthy to hand when sudden hunger strikes is the quickest road to falling off the wagon.

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I found that double doing on fish oil pills of liquid for the first month really helped get the weight loss going good.


Fish oils have helped to ameliorate my depression for the past eleven years, and I take them all year round.

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after a week or so of feeling good, you will go through a transition to burning fat as a fuel and you will get the keto flu for a week as you adjust, after that your energy will balance and you'll be clearer minded and your mood stabilized. I really recommend you go for the full ketogenic state as soon as you can ,this will get your body burning fat right way, and make losing the weight much easier.

I've achieved a full ketogenic state a couple of times in the past, and it certainly made me feel better in mind and body, however, I need to catch up on more research about ketogenic diets and kidney stone formation before I jump straight in again.

I find it hard to believe that a ketogenic diet is the only factor at play in causing a rise in kidney stones in epileptic children, for instance, but having just gone through such prolonged agony this week, I'm keen on finding out just what the real reason might be first  ;)

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Also ,a little bit of exercise goes a long way, don't listen to the hardcore folks, if your out of shape go slow, you will get fitter and stronger naturally, we are all not meant to be at our peak athletic strength.

I'm with you there 100% :)

For the six months I'm not depressed, like now, I get plenty of exercise outside. And even this week I've been reorganising my home (in between doubling up with pain and trying not to scream ;)) which means running up and down a flight of fifteen steps at least a couple of hundred times a day :) My kidney specialist recommended the stairs bit to get the stones moving; but I think it's just a distraction technique.

I'm not in any hurry. I've found that pushing myself too hard, especially when considerably overweight, just leads to injury. And it's good to feel muscles forming underneath the fat from all the slow and steady exercise. From a lifetime of cycling I have quads and calves to die for  ;)

And I'm not competitive, so I don't race either :)

Thanks for all the great advice, Jim,

I hope you're enjoying your bike  8)

CF


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Re: Better by Sixty than Fifty :)
« Reply #5 on: August 08, 2011, 12:15:20 AM »
The paleo diet will help with the depression, especially if you read up on the effects of a ketogenic diet on emotional balance and mood.

This.


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I found that double doing on fish oil pills of liquid for the first month really helped get the weight loss going good.

And this can also help a lot with the mood.  It's difficult to overdose on fish oil; I've seen recommendations as high as 1 gram combined DHA/EPA per pound of body weight. 

For seasonal depression, also look into light therapy:
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/light-therapy/MY00195

If it's late summer where you are, this is a good time to get the jump on the seasonal affective disorder. Starting light therapy before the days get too short helps me avoid the energy slump during the fall and winter.

Hi Sparrow,

And thank you very much for reminding me to dust off my old light box. It's something I know should help, but I get lazy about using it. This year I will. However, my seasons shifted as a result of using certain classes of antidepressants over the years, so I'm only a month out of the last down phase. I don't know when to start using it as I won't come down again until January.

Light is only part of the answer for me though. Before meds I used to spend half of every year in bed thinking of nothing but how to kill myself. It was severe endogenous clinical depression, and the nearest thing to hell on earth. After two decades of that, I would have happily ended my life if it hadn't been for my child. The meds stopped the suicidal thoughts, but could only do so much, and all the other symptoms still remain, albeit in a slightly muted form. But no matter how bad it gets, I always know that there are six months of happiness ahead, and that keeps me going. Some people never feel happy, so I'm lucky. I just have to pay for mine in advance  ;)

As for the fish oils, I will look into upping my dose after reading what you said.

I remember an orthodox professor of nutrition giving a lecture on fish oils. He was all in favour, but did offer one note of caution. He said that an Inuit on a traditional diet would never die of a heart attack, but if you cut him he'd bleed to death  ;)

Always best to tell a surgeon if you're on high doses so he can be prepared, he said.

Thanks again, Sparrow :)

CF

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Re: Better by Sixty than Fifty :)
« Reply #6 on: August 10, 2011, 01:20:36 PM »
Weight last week: 213 lbs

Weight this week: 206 lbs


Resting BP last week: 134/71

Resting BP this week: 116/61


Resting pulse rate last week: 75

Resting pulse rate this week: 70

What a week it's been! More kidney stone attacks and no chance to exercise any more than running up and down the stairs at home. But I got the all clear from my doc a couple of days ago and will be getting out for long walks again from tomorrow on.

My plans to go cold turkey had to be revised several times. Because I can't have nuts and seeds due to the oxalate content, I decided to go lacto-paleo. Like Jim, I do really well on dairy, and our cows produce only good A2 milk. Plenty of locally sourced dairy foods too.

I lost seven pounds. Mostly due to water loss as my glycogen stores ran out, but I can run up the stairs far more easily as a result  :)

I was expecting to suffer the blahs for quite a while, but miraculously they were over within three days, and replaced with renewed energy and a very positive mood.

My main problems are lack of sleep (too many enjoyable things to do when I'm awake  ;D) and the fact that my appetite seemed to disappear completely. I enjoy my food tremendously when I have it, but I never feel hungry.

I'm eating meat with lots of fat, fish, eggs, dairy, tons of veg, and not a lot of fruit as my sweet tooth also seems to be very muted.

I have to add salt as the medication I'm on demands it, but I seem to need far less than I did before. My dinner plate used to look as if it had been visited by a very localised snow storm  ;D

My blood pressure and pulse are both down, and when I told my doc I was going to do a Paleo diet he was all in favour (also having a degree in social anthropology, he talked a fair bit about the Masai etc.). He's also agreed to give me a very comprehensive blood and urine test every three months (for free) so that we can see how the diet affects me over time.

I admit to being over the moon at such a positive start. This week I'll be concentrating on getting as much exercise in as possible outdoors and starting free weights at home.

I did cheat. I had coffee, cider, and three small potatoes. I'm working on losing the coffee now my energy levels are so high. I think that the majority of the good effects from this week came from a strict avoidance of grains and non-fruit sugars. No more gastro-intestinal disturbances after the third day  :)

Thanks from the bottom of my heart to Jim for the inspiration, and to all of you for the kind support and excellent information  :)

Back next week,

CF
 




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Re: Better by Sixty than Fifty :)
« Reply #7 on: August 12, 2011, 08:01:30 AM »
Sounds like a real solid start.

My sister has also started the diet, and has been astounded at losing 4 pounds the first week.

After a couple months your cravings for your old cheat foods will go away altogether, and you will get sick when you eat them.

Go slow. I got where I am without really running or doing any sort of calisthenics, just good old fashioned walking, and slow walking too!
Do try to find some hills though, that will do a lot to get your overall fitness level up over time. As you get thinner it's inevitable that you will want to do more.
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« Reply #8 on: August 16, 2011, 10:38:37 PM »
Sounds like a real solid start.

Hi Jim :)

Thanks. Even though I know that the first week's weight loss is mostly water dropped when the glycogen stores are used up, it still feels good to be so much lighter in one week.


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My sister has also started the diet, and has been astounded at losing 4 pounds the first week.

Great news! I imagine that she's been inspired by watching your steady progress over the months :).

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After a couple months your cravings for your old cheat foods will go away altogether, and you will get sick when you eat them.

I'm sure you're right. I'm about to put in my weekly report and there's an example of that effect included...

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Go slow. I got where I am without really running or doing any sort of calisthenics, just good old fashioned walking, and slow walking too!

I'm with you all the way on going slow. I actually feel physically sick if I get too out of breath, but I can keep going on any exercise, like walking or cycling for many hours without a break. I reckon some of us are built for speed and others for endurance :)

I'm not doing this to look good. I want to *feel* good. Flexible and strong will do me :)

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Do try to find some hills though, that will do a lot to get your overall fitness level up over time. As you get thinner it's inevitable that you will want to do more.

No problem there, Jim, I have a mountaineering friend who takes me walking for four hours at a stretch twice a week. More often than not it's a cliff path walk which meanders up and down 300' cliffs and is only short of needing ropes in parts  :)

On account of the weight I'm very slow on the harder stretches, and where there are steps they do my knees in because of the osteo, but I'm determined to strengthen up the muscles around those joints so I work through the pain....but always slowly  ;)

However, I've got some great muscles forming underneath the fat, and know that once I'm thinner I'll have the strength to do so much more. And that's tremendously motivating :)

Thanks for the good advice  :)

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« Reply #9 on: August 16, 2011, 11:17:45 PM »
This has been a testing week. It is also the week when I drop my fear of stigmatisation and come out, so to speak ;)

In the year 2000, after decades of being labelled as having Seasonal Affective Disorder, and with the help of an online friend I was able to get myself correctly diagnosed as being a Seasonal Bipolar II.

Because I had never been manic, and my highs were productive and creative times, all the docs had just assumed I was suffering from unipolar depression. This led to me being given every kind of antidepressant for over twenty years, which is exactly the wrong thing to do for Bipolars. Far from relieving the symptoms they made them much, much worse, year by year, and on top of that, each different kind gave me side-effects like vertigo, confusion, drowsiness and blurred vision to deal with, and all made me put on the weight I am now, finally, dealing with.

When I took my self-diagnosis to a psychiatrist he agreed and put me on lithium eleven years ago. Very quickly this affected my thyroid gland and Iíve had to supplement with thyroxine. Iíve been on lithium alone ever since and never missed a dose, though the experimental reduction last year took me back to the old days of endless suicidal thoughts etc. so Iím glad to be back on the original dose now.

At first, I was very scared and much against the idea of taking lithium, but my online friend, also bipolar, had convinced me that a mood stabiliser was vital, and she was right. Within a very short time of taking it all my suicidal thoughts disappeared, never to return again (until I dropped the dose last year). It also made my down times much more bearable.

However, I went through a long period of mourning for my creative highs as lithium largely put paid to those too. I can still be creative verbally, but it makes it hard to be creative visually, as I used to be. I also suffer short term memory problems  and difficulties on concentration along with a number of other cognitive side effects.

Iím relating all this now as I want to record how the lacto-paleo diet Iím on affects someone like me with Bipolar II as I go through the seasons.

This week has been a challenge due to personal problems. Although I no longer have real life relationships I occasionally become fond of a friend met on a creative forum I frequent. But I donít have deep feelings and like to keep things light (which I state from the beginning)  and if people get involved and ask too much of me, it can be a hard to deal with.

This week I have been writing emails for many hours a day in my efforts to try and  sort  things out. Iíve not been getting enough sleep, been neglecting the things I love to do, especially getting out on my bike, and not making sure my fridge was stocked with the right foods. As a bipolar I am prone to obsession, and this can be either good or bad, according to what Iím obsessed with. And being obsessed with a person is definitely bad for both parties involved.

The good news is that last night we have finally released each other without malice, and I can get right back on the road again :)

I didnít do too badly this last week. I finally started to get low carb flu. I ate lacto-paleo every day, only weakening on the last two days when I ate six ounces of milk chocolate each day, partly self-destructive because I felt guilty, and part comfort eating. As it turned out I didnít enjoy it half as much as I used to, and felt terrible the following mornings. It wonít be any sacrifice  to give that up again now that the crisis is over. If Iíd had my fridge fully stocked with the right foods and hadnít let myself get hungry, it wouldnít have happened. I should have listened more to Jim on that one.
 
So. In spite of what happened I still consider this week a victory. I did not let the comfort eating escalate into a full-scale binge, I strictly avoided all grains and processed foods (apart from the chocolate). While I didnít lose any weight I didnít put any on. And Iím fired up for getting back on course this coming week :)

Iíve learned that aged cheeses are not good for me moodwise. Possibly the tyramine content. Iím going to stick to fresh cheeses from now on, and will make my own paneer for Indian dishes from our local A2 cows. I might try making other kinds of cheeses at home too.

My coffee consumption is now down to one cup of instant a day. I only needed it to give me energy, and the diet is starting to take over that role, so I soon hope to give it up entirely.

Weight loss maintained at: 206 lbs


Resting BP at start: 134/71

Resting BP week 1: 116/61

Resting BP this week: 130/75



Resting pulse rate at start: 75

Resting pulse rate last week: 70

Resting pulse rate this week: 58

So after eating those large quantities of milk chocolate my pulse is down and my blood pressure up again. Interesting. I'm going to see what a week of 'perfect' eating will do to those readings next week :)

Cheers,

CF


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« Reply #10 on: August 23, 2011, 11:02:34 PM »
A shorter entry this week, as I've managed to do just about everything I shouldn't, and am not proud of myself. But it's not all bad news, and I'm very optimistic about my chances of success in the long run  :)

I've maintained my first week's weight loss and remain stable at 206 lbs.

I'm doing more exercise (cycling, walking and stair climbing at home), getting stronger by the day and feeling much fitter. My aches and pains from osteoarthritis are almost nonexistent now.

I've been eating lacto-paleo 95% of the time, but went off the tracks due to stress, lack of sleep and sheer hedonism when I ate more milk chocolate and even baked a wholemeal loaf and ate a couple of thick slices. That was the first time I'd eaten any kind of grain since I started Paleo.

I've found in the past that if I go off grain for a few weeks and then eat some, I don't have any bad side effects as long at it's only one instance, but if I follow up with more the next day, I get a very bad response to it. This time I kept it to just once, and have escaped any physiological response.

The stress was caused by me resuming my email relationship and taking it to Skype, which I've never done before. The relationship has restarted on a much better level of understanding, and this time it's not troubles that are stressing me, but enjoying his company too much  ;D. In fact, this week, neither of us has had much sleep because we end up talking for hours about life, the universe and everything, and it's the lack of rest and build up of other things that need doing that's causing me to stray from my Paleo eating plan.

However, last night we talked it through, and have decided to limit our time on Skype so that we can get some sleep and catch up on everything that needs doing. He has health issues too, and our mutual obsession has been wearing him out too  ;D  At our age those early passions burn out quickly and we're reaching a much calmer and more rewarding stage now. 

This coming week should be much better as a result, and I hope to be much more proud of next week's entry  :)

Every time I go off the rails, my body shows  me the way back to them very quickly. In spite of the mistakes, I'm finding it easy to stay on the diet most of the time.

I have no doubt that I'll keep going in spite of mistakes and reach my weight and fitness goals in the end. I'm not in any hurry, and I've learned how to forgive myself for being human  :)

CF




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« Reply #11 on: September 11, 2011, 10:02:03 PM »
Hello again :)

Anyone wishing to avoid the ramble and get to the results is invited to scroll down to the summary at the bottom :D

My recent silence has signalled treading water, and not failure.

After the 'homemade bread' incident, I haven't touched any grains at all. And I've eaten no tinned or otherwise processed foods at all. Everything fresh and produced as close to home as possible. I'm currently giving in to cravings for large amounts of 'allowed' veg.........and the occasional potato......I'm half-Irish, for goodness' sake, and no saint!

I'm continuing with lacto-paleo, and the 'lacto' part has been of immense use in helping me keep to the 'paleo' part :) As you know, I'm under docs' orders to keep off nuts and other oxalate-containing foods because of the recent kidney stone episodes, so dairy is the most convenient way for me to get calcium to my ageing bones. And since it gives me no side effects, I'm continuing to enjoy it.

I've been through an extremely stressful few weeks, and when needed, milk chocolate has remained my drug of choice, but nowhere near as much as I used to eat, only every few days, and I've lost an actual craving for it.

And through what feels almost like narcolepsy (but is really just old-fashioned lack of sleep) I'm continuing to drink two weak cups of instant coffee a day (no sugar, of course).

In the end my email relationship had to end. My obsession petered out very quickly due to discovering his uncontrollable rages. His obsession did not wane but grew. Anyone wanting to love a bipolar woman has to be a lot more stable than that, and his lack of understanding about my condition caused even more stress. He thought it was a matter of will and psychology, rather than an hereditary illness as real as any physical one. So I ended it. He's a wonderful person, and I hope to become friends with him again at some point in the future. When I was younger I would have relished all that Sturm und Drang, but I like safe harbour and quieter waters now :)

So, being back in the relaxing but stimulating company of my male and female friends has made me feel much more stable and able to get back to losing weight and getting fit.

Another stressor in my life has been a rather pleasant one. In line with changing myself I've also been changing my entire home. When I went down as usual last year my house was in disorder and that made me feel even more depressed. So this year I'm using my up time to spring clean and reorganise everything.

My bedroom is being recreated as a winter hibernatory nest containing everything I need to comfort me during those agoraphobic months. I'm making an art/photographic studio, and collecting hundreds of my favourite books there too.

When in deep clinical depression very little seems worth doing, but it can be made a bit easier to achieve things if everything is to hand and organised. But if too far down, then all you want to do is try to sleep as it's the only thing that provides escape from the terrible thoughts that constantly invade your mind and can't be got rid of by willpower or therapy. Medication helps, but cannot cure, so I'm hoping so much that paleo will make a difference, no matter how small. (And I will have given up on the chocolate and coffee long before January ;))

So, in January, when I feel the first stirrings of withdrawal from the world this welcoming den will be waiting for me :) The only stressful part of this has been that the house is upside down with the contents of cupboards etc, all over the place while I clean shelves etc. But that's boring stuff, so I'll stop now ;)

I've never been focused enough to prepare like this before during my up times, so I see this as a sign that the paleo diet is helping me to be a bit more sensible and less hedonistic :)

I've also recently started to learn more about astronomy and am also spending more time in my wildlife garden - both very satisfying and calming activities.

And as the nights are drawing in, I'll be starting to use my light box just as soon as my den  is complete :)

I don't expect many people to read this journal as it's only really relevent to bipolars like me who are going lacto-paleo, so I won't apologise for writing so much each time as it's a bipolar thing. 'Pressure of Thought' it's called, my PDoc says, and it almost causes me physical pain to edit :). Talking and writing too much are my worst 'symptoms' when up. It's my downs that are the killer.

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So. After those mid-up-time ramblings I'll give a summary:

I've lost another 2 lbs and am now at 204 lbs. Losing 9 lbs in 5 weeks is fine by me :)

My blood pressure and pulse are still much lower than at the beginning.

I've been getting out for walks and cycle rides, but not as much as usual as I've been spending more time and energy shifting furniture, running up and down stairs and doing hard gardening. I reckon that's fair exchange :)

I finally started lifting free weights at home again and was horrified to discover how much strength I'd lost in my upper body during the 6-months' inactivity of my last bad downer. I had to change the weights to much lighter ones to avoid damage. But at least I'm on the road again :)

No matter how many times I stray off the road, I'm not giving up, and will get there in the end. Maybe just not as quickly as I thought I would ;)

I think that many of us start off on a new regime for life imagining a future where there will be no stresses. It would be so easy then. But in spite of cheats along the way, I'm finding that it's my ability to keep on with paleo eating and exercise even through the worst outside pressures that gives me strength and convinces me that I'm going to succeed. I have a deep and comforting feeling that I will eventually lose all the weight and reach maximum fitness for my age, no matter how long it takes.

CM